School is so stupid. 

This'll be a quickie; just killing some time before I do some other things.

re·treat 

1) I can't sleep.
2) Everyone's feeling crappy, so I didn't want to end a blog talking about what's going on.
3) It's so late :( I just re-read my blog and it looks like a 12 year old wrote it; no flow and it had grammatical errors. Oh well.


Am I the only one who finds puns really amusing? 
1) I wondered why the baseball was getting bigger. Then it hit me.
2) I'm reading a book about anti-gravity. It's impossible to put down.
3) Did you hear about the guy whose whole left side was cut off? He's all right now.
4) It's not that the man did not know how to juggle, he just didn't have the balls to do it.
5) I did a theatrical performance about puns. Really it was just a play on words.
6) There was a sign on the lawn at a drug re-hab center that said 'Keep off the Grass'
7) I couldn't quite remember how to throw a boomerang, but eventually it came back to me.
8) I was going to look for my missing watch, but I could never find the time.
9) I used to have a fear of hurdles, but I got over it.
10) He drove his expensive car into a tree and found out how the Mercedes bends.


jajajaja, kekekeke, fufufu. :)


Okay, okay. Forget that. I'll do one of those quizzer-majiggers. Oh boy, that's when you know I'm bored. Haha. I NEVER DO THOSE!




When's the last time you ran? - today, cuz it rained like a jerk.
Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them? - yeahhh, but those are soooo last year
What are you dreading right now? - that i can't sleep...
Do you celebrate 420? - duhh! :)
Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night? - what's thatt???
If anyone came to your house on your "lazy days" what would ya'll do? - ... i wouldn't open the door at all.
Who last grabbed your ass? - jerry ho ... AND THAT SHOULD SAY BUTT!
Have you ever been on your school's track team? - haha, too lazy.
Do you own a pair of Converse? - yeap.
Did you copy and paste this survey? - yerup
Do you eat raw cookie dough? - do you feast on rat eyes?
Have you ever kicked a vending machine? - that thing ate my dollar!
Don't you hate it when the radio ruins good songs by playing them over and over? - you read my mind!
Do you watch Trading Spaces? - huhhh?
How do you eat oreos? - .. in my mouth, i guess.
Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone? - yeah, it suckedd
Are you cocky? - HERPDERPYES. :)
Could you live without a computer? - probably         .. not :)
Do you wear your shoes in the house? - im asian, bro.
Who or what sleeps with you? - its only me myself and i, boss.
At what age did you find out that Santa wasn't real? - santa's not real?
How many phones, house phones and cell phones are in your house? - a lot dud.
What do you do when you're sad? - nothing.
Who would you call first if you won the lottery? - no one, why would i call you? its MY MONEY.
Last time you saw your best friend? - friday?
Are you in high school? - loving it
What jewelry are you wearing? - necklace?
Is anyone on your bad side now? - not that i know of
What's the first thing you do when you get online? - open 4 tabs for email, facebook, youtube, and school email.
Do you watch Grey's Anatomy? - i dont even watch tv.
How do most people spell your name? - waoidjsaoidjoihym. embarassing, i know.
Would you wear a boy/girlfriends clothes? - i would wear my own clothes. yup.
Where do you work? - nowhere :(
What are you doing tomorrow? - going to church  isuppose.
Is Justin Timberlake becoming the next Michael Jackson? - WHAUHWTWUAOHTWHAT???
Favorite name for a girl? - Obama.
Favorite name for a boy? - Jesus.
Will you keep your last name when you get married? - im a boss, yes i will.
When was the last time you left your house? - today.
Do you return your cart? - yeaaaa, eesh im too kind
Do you have a dishwasher? - yep
What noise do you hear? - music
Would you survive in prison? - so long as i don't drop that bar!
Who is the youngest in your family? - meeeeeeeeee
If all of your friends were going on a road trip, who would most likey overpack? - ..hmm, retreat on monday. AARON!
Do you know anyone with the same name as you? - yeeessirreeee
What's the last thing you purchased? - pizza.
Do your siblings ever pay for stuff for you? - yeaahhhh :D
What brand are your pants right now? - i took em off just to check! BULLHEADS
Ever been to Georgia (the state)? - no, ever met my fist? YESSS!
What irritates you most on the internet? - lagg.
What brand is your digital camera? - i aint no camwhore
Do you watch movies with your parents? - hah, sike.
What song best describes your life right now? - El Chombo - Macarron Chacarron. PLEASE LISTEN LOL
Do you own expensive perfume/cologne? - define expensive.
Are you taking college classes right now? - CollegeNOW
Do you like sushi? - yessirr!
Do you get your hair cut every month? - i must.
Do you go online everyday? - pretty much.
Will you pass this survey on to 5 people? - NOPE!

Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? - whatever it wants!
Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? - i aint no jew. sorry jesus!
Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? - it dont matter. long as im sleeping.
Have you ever stolen a street sign before? - people do that?
Do you like to use post-it notes? - no.
Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? - i don't cut out coupons.
Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? - how about, neither?
Do you have freckles? - no.
Do you always smile for pictures? - no.
What is your biggest pet peeve? - people who say no twice in a row.
Do you ever count your steps when you walk? - i count the steps for a stairway. lol
Have you ever peed in the woods? - yeup 
What about pooped in the woods? - neup
Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing? - yeup
Do you chew your pens and pencils? - neup
How many people have you slept with this week? - 1.    <3           it's just me, relax.
What size is your bed? - the size of me, no lie.
What is your Song of the week? - none.
Is it okay for guys to wear pink? - why wear anything?
Do you still watch cartoons? - no.
Whats your least favorite movie? - none. 
Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? - inside me.
What do you drink with dinner? - water
What do you dip a chicken nugget in? - blood.
What is your favorite food? - idk, anything :)
What movies could you watch over and over and still love? - Wall-E, Finding Nemo, Monsters Inc., and so much moreee.
Last person you kissed/kissed you? - some queer.
Were you ever a boy/girl scout? - girl scout baby.
Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? - i do this on a daily basis.
When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? - uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Can you change the oil on a car? - one day i will.
Ever gotten a speeding ticket? - one day i will.
Ran out of gas? - one day i will.
Favorite kind of sandwich? - as long as its made by you.
Best thing to eat for breakfast? - milk and cereal.
What is your usual bedtime? - 12ish?
Are you lazy? - yeahhhhhhhhhuhhhhh
When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? - its like scream with a tongue hanging out and he always did "WAZZUPPP"
What is your Chinese astrological sign? - PIGGY
How many languages can you speak? - like, three billion minus the billion. fluently? one.
Do you have any magazine subscriptions? - nope.
Which are better legos or lincoln logs? - legos for sure.
Are you stubborn? - sometimes.
Who is better...Leno or Letterman? - kimmel!
Ever watch soap operas? - haha nope.
Afraid of heights? - sort of.
Sing in the car? - yes!
Dance in the shower? - yes!
Dance in the car? - yes!
Ever used a gun? - one of these days.
Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? - mug shot.
Do you think musicals are cheesy? - some.
Is Christmas stressful? - sometimes.
Ever eat a pierogi? - obviously not.
Favorite type of fruit pie? - meat pie.
Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? - a superhero.
Do you believe in ghosts? - yeah
Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? - yeah
Take a vitamin daily? - nope
Wear slippers? - yeah
Wear a bath robe? - nope
What do you wear to bed? - boxers
First concert? - some wack one :[
Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? - H-MART!
Nike or Adidas? - Both.
Cheetos Or Fritos? - Both.
Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? - Both.
Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? - why.. would.. you.... care...
Ever take dance lessons? - No.
Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? - she just a bossssss sonnn
Can you curl your tongue? - Yessireeee.
Ever won a spelling bee? - no, i couldn't spell neseccary ... DARN IT. jkjkjk.
Have you ever cried because you were so happy? - no
Own any record albums? - no.
Own a record player? - no.
Regularly burn incense? - no, but i do regularly burn! jk. im so bad :(
Ever been in love? - yeah!
Who would you like to see in concert? - me
What was the last concert you saw? - hillsong 
Hot tea or cold tea? - right now, hot.
Tea or coffee? - depends, usually tea.
Sugar or snickerdoodles? - what are snickerdoodles?
Can you swim well? - i guess.
Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? - people can't hold their breath without holding their nose? LOL
Are you patient? - somewhat.
DJ or band, at a wedding? - never thought about it.
Ever won a contest? - don't think so :(
Ever have plastic surgery? - yeah, i'm a tranny.
Which are better black or green olives? - olives are disgusting.
Can you knit or crochet? - im a man.
Best room for a fireplace? - the room that has the fireplace.
Do you want to get married? - yes.
If married, how long have you been married? - til' i die, baby.
Who was your HS crush? - im still in highschool.
Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? - i used to. lol.
Do you have kids? - yeah!
Do you want kids? - yeah!
Whats your favorite color? - um, it's complicated.
Do you miss anyone right now? - i actually do, lol.
Did you watch, Next Great American Band on FOX? - did you watch, ASK ME IF I CARE ABOUT THESE SHOWS >:O




oh boy. im a loser. good riddance. at least im tired; after 160 questions.

Hello world.


Just felt a little inspired by Easter Sim's blog, yeah, I'm late. 


This whole "responsibility" and "stretching" seems to be more like "tearing" us all up. I'm sure no details need be mentioned, besides, I'm not here to write essays. 


Now, I feel I can put some input here easier. (Primarily because I'm too lazy to speak and not in any mood to debate/argue)


So here are some questions I've been asking myself during these past weeks:
1) Do I want to go to church today? 
2) Why don't I want to go to church today?
3) What's wrong at church that makes me not want to go today?


Nowadays, I've come to view church as work. Work, work, work. And not in a positive way either. If we come to serve God at church, should we be serving Him half-heartedly? What's the purpose of being able to do "so many glorious things for God" if only a hardened heart remains afterwards? Not that I'm trying to imply that this is my attitude towards everything, but honestly, I feel it coming to such a point. Constantly, I hear how "good" it is to feel "over-burdened" and "stressed out" and "stretched". 


What's the purpose of having so much on our 'plates' if we can't finish it?


Like Sir Demetri said, don't do anything if you can't take responsibility. (something like that)


So, the main problem I see going on right now is that only a small bunch of us are doing ... hmm, how do I put this... Everything? But we're not asking you, or I'm not at least, to do everything for us. But why is there more "food", if I can use that term, being added to our plates? I'm all for growing and learning more, but isn't there a limit to the rate of growth one can experience? I'm not a fan of shoving down the entire Bible down people's throats along with other responsibilities. 


I completely understand the magnitude of stress and pressure put upon the leaders, it totally exceeds ours; in fact, my amount of work may seem insignificant compared to the other youth in New Wave. But if this is the case, then why are the same people constantly being forced to do every thing the church needs? Because there aren't any more people to do it? Then why are we searching for more things to do. Why is it necessary to have hundreds of ministries that only five of the same people can do at the same time? 


Again, I'm all for being able to serve God in different ways. Such a diverse amount of ministries can help a lot of people find out their calling from God. But that only works for a large group of people. How can, I'd say about 20, of the same people be called to do one hundred things? It's impossible because we are not omnipotent. We can't do everything. Remember, I'm not just referring to what the New Wave officers do, I'm talking about the church in general. That's why I feel Ebenezer take some time and build itself up, rather than other churches. I've always felt that the church was picking other churches up without even getting up itself. Reaching the neighborhood was a great idea. Doing things that can help maintain the church are great. Needing to be in every church's event is not so cool. I must say this AGAIN, but I'm not saying that any of these things are bad. Of course we should be spreading out the word of God and the gospel, but I can recall a summer where Ebenezer was doing something for every church. I'm barely exaggerating. The church needs more people to support it's number of ministries, that's all I'm trying to say. We have had so many, and many of them have been diminished due to the fact that barely any people can support it because they are already doing everything else. Green club, Otaku club, remember those?


I feel the problem erupting currently is not about exactly what we have to do, but the time at which this is all being laid down upon us. When we're pressured to do well in school, church becomes a burden. In the summer time, or any break in general, we are ready to serve (because we have no life?). Although we are not 'forced' to do anything, it feels forced regardless. I've had the liberty to take off a few weeks of Friday service, and it felt amazing. Not by the fact that I didn't need to go to church, but I could take a break. 


Hopefully, this doesn't make Ebenezer seem like a prison to be in, but maybe this can paint an image of how 'imprisoned' we feel. I agree, all of this jazz will one day have us grow and become more mature. But is this the only way we can be nurtured? Is being forced to do everything the only way for someone to grow in God? Or is it the fact that some people have been in church for so long, it's only fair that they should do everything? 


I don't want to come off as whiny. I'm just listing my ideas and how I feel about the current situation. Perhaps neither of us can understand how any of us feel. The leaders think it's good, the kids think it's bad; or maybe I'm just speaking for both parties. But, I do think I'm stating unanimous information. 


I'm glad some of our complaints are being met at least. You know, Friday worship once a month and voluntary Saturday meets. If the way we feel truly is understood, then actions to relieve us are just as justified. The act of telling us that doing what we do is good and should be continued means we're being forced. I feel obligated to stay in all my roles because I am forced, believe it or not. No matter how many times we had complained, we were simply told to "keep doing it because it's good" even though we heard "I don't want to do this to you if you feel forced." No, I'm not talking about JP. I'm just talking about all the leaders who have told me (and us) this. 


Okay, I've been writing this for a bit, trying to compile my ideas. If you read this, awesome! If not, well, at least I blogged, right? This is what I'm talking about, haha. Everything around here is just work. To blog is to work. Doing all these things are great, but not when we feel like it's a job to do it. If there's no love behind something, why continue? But, don't worry JP. I kind of like blogging, let's me think, ahaha. I just don't see the need of having all these things set and made to feel like homework. School is a teenager's worst friend, stop making us feel like we're with it on weekends too. 


Our fellow leader Demetri likes taking breaks, and I do too. 


Good night, no hard feelings y'all. :)