Dei plena sunt omnia: February 2011

Dear God, I MUST Honor You

god.

please give me the patience for me to be in the same house with my father.

because who knows what i could do if i didn't know you.

it's complicated.

Dear God, When Are You Coming?

good day. many apologies for not turning in a blog yesterday, i totally failed my goal of the week. but i have an excuse! i had no internet and i wasn't even home! beat that. but still, many apologies.

i've got a bit more of an interesting topic today to blog about... as if my blogs aren't interesting.

end of the world, apocalypse, end times, whatever you want to call it but it's gon' happen! had an interesting talk with my brother about farms and the produce we get. slaughtering of animals included.

i don't get disgusted by these things, but i do feel uncomfortable, however not to the put of becoming a vegetarian. (because i love meat)

basically, animals are kept together (cows, pigs, chickens, etc.) and if you didn't know, animal's shouldn't be confined together. especially different types of animals. now, if they were to live together; they would all die because they are pooping in the same area, sleeping in the same area, eating from the same trough or whatever. this causes disease, yup, disease. most farms are already following this method and not only is this cruel for the life of animals, but also for us, humans. mad cow, swine, avian, all that originated from having animals being bunched into one little area sharing diseases. now, in order for these animals to survive, they are injected with many antibodies. if you haven't taking biology yet, you can never kill off bacteria or virus etc. because there will also be a select few who are 'special' and are immune to whatever is being used to kill it. these bacteria can rapidly multiply which means a stronger concentration of the antibody must be used. this makes humans more susceptible to contract the diseases animals have because they are, um. nevermind; it's too graphic. farmers also constantly re-use the soil, which drains it's nutrients and it later becomes non-arable(?), infertile. the bible actually says to use the farm land, and after several years, allow it to rest for one. isn't it weird how god has already planned everything out for us? even for our daily living, yet we fail to follow his guide on how to live a healthy life. it's sad....

there is a single corporation that controls everything, like a monopoly. well, not everything, but they have a major impact on most farmers. now, if your produce or meat is not organic, you are likely to get diabetes, obese, and cancer. yeah, cancer. everything gives you cancer.

the more advanced a civilization tries to become, the faster the world will deteriorate. everyone's trying to be 'eco-friendly' but the food we eat will kill us. don't become a vegetarian, because meat is delicious, but decrease your intake.

there is no easy way out. all people care about now is money. and that is primarily why we will die. this generation does not care about the future, about the next generation. now, if you think about it. with the way the world wants to 'live their life', there will be no world soon. the earth is crumbling apart, and it just feels like something will happen soon. the bible says that there will also be more natural disasters. we've been having a lot of natural disasters.

maybe i'm overthinking, but it's fun to think. but it's a good reminder to know this world is not forever. everything is meaningless, so stop trying to make it meaningful.

Dear God, I'm Lost

been wondering what my future is going to be. curious of what my passions are and what i can't stand doing. haven't had much luck deciding my future, even though it has been decided by god. yeah, sure, he knows what's to become of me, but i don't know right now.

okay, i love music and all; but when i really think about doing music, i know it won't work out.
i've wanted to become a chef, only because of foodnetwork, but i don't see myself cooking because i don't know how to, haha.
i've wanted to be a vet because i love animals, but can i really make it that far?

my mind is blank when someone asks me what i see myself doing in 10 years, because honestly .. i'm unsure.

sorry for a short post, but weekends are busy for me and i'm rushing to get today's blog in. definitely more food for thought during weekdays.

god, i'm lost. please help!

Dear God, Thank You For Others

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good old donghaeng. if you need encouragement, definitely go and check out the site.

it offers prayer room and inspirational flash videos.

checkit!

Dear God, What Are We?

i wonder where the purity has gone in the youth of 2011. or even back in 2010, 2009, 2008. i can't even seem to remember when your average 12 year old kid had no idea about sex, drugs, alcohol etc. heck, i still believed girls peed out of their butts when i was around 12.

too much information ...

especially going to bayside, home of the potheads, all i get to hear is people asking to buy some blunts or dreaming about smashing some random girl. girls walk around like they're tools and guys just fiendin' for them. and i noticed, i felt nothing wrong with that, or until i really thought about it.

i recall spending time with many people (especially the youth) from emc on good old new years where i got time to re-examine my faith life and walk with god. right as new years struck, i took time to also bond with jonathan chen. after maybe 30 minutes, i noticed more and more people started to stay to listen to our conversations; even though it was just between the two of us (haha, nosy!) after sharing our problems and prayer requests, we started to move deeper (deeper) into the conversation until we started talking about predestination, the human race and such.

lord of the flies by william golding is a novel which expresses man's innate evilness, and so i thought: "are we just born with this evil?"

"god doesn't send us to hell, we send ourselves to hell" yeah, yeah. i've heard that.

"well, eve (and adam) ate from the tree of knowledge so it's our fault" okay...

then i started to think, "how can we be created from the image of god and end up being so crude" a creation made by none other than the most perfect god himself became distorted by selfish desires. i don't know, it doesn't make much sense to me.

everyone these days just wants to grow up and become something they're not. as if they want to take on the burden that they can't handle. but, doesn't that show even more childish behavior? kids want what they can't have, teenagers take what they can't have and want more. teenagers live like adults and speed to control their life.

I sound confused, I know
For what shall it profit a man to gain the whole world
Then lose his soul
For the longest I was riding high, cruise control
In my own mind making up the rules as I go
I swear it's not just my imagination
I heard a voice guiding me, navigation
Is it the road I chose or should I check the steering
Took a couple wrong turns, selective hearing
Is it fact or just my premonition
I see what's going on now, High Definition
jin - angels

i just wish teens would give up trying to live such a "cool life" and realize ...

they gonna die.

but isn't it natural for man to want that high social status. to keep his ego. be mad fly. not for just the secular, but for the religious. should we be religious or obedient?

just wish we (and that's including me) would realize it's not about the attention you get from others, it's the attention you get from god. why trade your soul for a piece of the world?

do something now before it's too late.

lecrae - background ft. c-lite

"I'm sticking to your script, and I'm reading all your signs.
I don't need my name in lights.
I don't need a starring role.
And why gain the whole wide world, if I'm just gon' loose my soul."

'"cuz' we all play the background, but mine's a rap star"

lord, humble this generation and show us the truth.

Dear God, I'm thankful for family ... and Red Envelopes

oh yes, it's that time of year! you know, chinese new years? it's probably the best time of the year for any little chinese boy. not only is there free food for you to freeload off of at your relatives house (or yours), you get paid going.

so monday night, my family apparently had plans to invite some relatives over to my place for a dinner. i found out because when i walked outside, i noticed i had my grandparents, their brothers and sisters (what are they called?), and even my uncle/aunt. it was a small gathering and i didn't even get money ... darn it.

well, apparently, i have a few red envelopes from them but my mom is holding them, and you know what happens when your parents are holding the treasures. actually, let's just say they aren't even yours anymore. it's going into 'your college funding'

donkeys man...

i actually enjoyed the smaller gathering because:

1 less embarrassment for myself.

i mean, it happens to you all the time doesn't it? 'oh kenny, you've gotten so skinny and tall!' or my mom screaming aloud 'kenny! have you called your ____ (insert relative)' and i even get the 'hey! who am i? (what are you supposed to call me)'

2 delicious food

i've noticed that if i have guests over my house, the food will actually taste approximately 5x better than your average food at my house. i mean, how does my mother whip up a meal for me in two minutes and then with a friend over, take twenty? i don't know, but that lobster was delicious yesterday.

3 peace and quiet

wow, now that i think of it. it was so nice and peaceful at my home last night. well, my uncle was obnoxiously loud. but usually, at your typical asian dinner, or it's probably just chinese people, you don't hear anything but the chewing of food (ie: slurping noodles), shouts with food flying out of open mouths, clinking of glasses, and of course, the most random, barbaric grunts... i enjoyed that peace and quietness last night.

speaking of chinese new year, i have a quick thought before i close this post!

hey all you taiwanese people /angryface

if you're not chinese then stop celebrating our chinese new year and geeet outt! actually, stay and give me the money instead.

okay that's all. this whole week is gonna be with family, and hopefully i get mon-- hopefully i have a lot of 'bonding' time with family. just kidding, i love the jins.

chinese new year 2010, '11 soon to come.