i wonder where the purity has gone in the youth of 2011. or even back in 2010, 2009, 2008. i can't even seem to remember when your average 12 year old kid had no idea about sex, drugs, alcohol etc. heck, i still believed girls peed out of their butts when i was around 12.


too much information ...


especially going to bayside, home of the potheads, all i get to hear is people asking to buy some blunts or dreaming about smashing some random girl. girls walk around like they're tools and guys just fiendin' for them. and i noticed, i felt nothing wrong with that, or until i really thought about it.


i recall spending time with many people (especially the youth) from emc on good old new years where i got time to re-examine my faith life and walk with god. right as new years struck,  i took time to also bond with jonathan chen. after maybe 30 minutes, i noticed more and more people started to stay to listen to our conversations; even though it was just between the two of us (haha, nosy!) after sharing our problems and prayer requests, we started to move deeper (deeper) into the conversation until we started talking about predestination, the human race and such.


lord of the flies by william golding is a novel which expresses man's innate evilness, and so i thought: "are we just born with this evil?"


"god doesn't send us to hell, we send ourselves to hell" yeah, yeah. i've heard that.


"well, eve (and adam) ate from the tree of knowledge so it's our fault" okay...


then i started to think, "how can we be created from the image of god and end up being so crude" a creation made by none other than the most perfect god himself became distorted by selfish desires. i don't know, it doesn't make much sense to me. 


everyone these days just wants to grow up and become something they're not. as if they want to take on the burden that they can't handle. but, doesn't that show even more childish behavior? kids want what they can't have, teenagers take what they can't have and want more. teenagers live like adults and speed to control their life.


I sound confused, I know
For what shall it profit a man to gain the whole world
Then lose his soul
For the longest I was riding high, cruise control
In my own mind making up the rules as I go
I swear it's not just my imagination
I heard a voice guiding me, navigation
Is it the road I chose or should I check the steering
Took a couple wrong turns, selective hearing
Is it fact or just my premonition
I see what's going on now, High Definition 
                                                        jin - angels


i just wish teens would give up trying to live such a "cool life" and realize ...


they gonna die.


but isn't it natural for man to want that high social status. to keep his ego. be mad fly. not for just the secular, but for the religious. should we be religious or obedient?


just wish we (and that's including me) would realize it's not about the attention you get from others, it's the attention you get from god. why trade your soul for a piece of the world? 


do something now before it's too late.


lecrae - background ft. c-lite


"I'm sticking to your script, and I'm reading all your signs. 
I don't need my name in lights. 
I don't need a starring role. 
And why gain the whole wide world, if I'm just gon' loose my soul."