so, it is currently 11am that i am writing this on the day i should probably be going to school to pick up my report card and such...


i awoke much earlier to my mother yelling at me because she thought i actually had classes today. Being someone who hates mornings, i was not feeling good about knowing that i had to be up to go to school. luckily, i had asked my cousin last night if she had wanted to go to school with me. although we didn't go to school together, she did say we could go home together. 


the whole time, i felt terrible. not because i made my cousin wait for me, of course not ;) she loves me. but more so that i didn't want to see my chemistry grade. curious on why? 


perhaps i shall reveal it to my billion fans!


for some odd reason, the tests i've been taking in chemistry haven't been so good. see, in my chemistry class, if you are able to get a "gold medal" (highest test grade in the class) you are exempt from doing homework. my mindset in my teacher's class was only to get that gold medal, therefore i wouldn't need to do his homework. good thinking right? nope.


after a while, i just chose to survive off the classwork and class lessons, but that wasn't enough, especially with all of the breaks in between days. the fact that i neglected actually remembering and studying for chemistry (and other classes) i ended up getting a seventy on one of his tests (on stoichiometry). or was it 72? but that's a pretty bad grade compared to my previous 100s. what made it hurt more was that i actually had to do homework. as you can see, my thinking was only that i had to do more work. but, i was hoping that the 70 grade was only an accident. my second chance was really in the midterm. also, my teacher offered test corrections on that test as well, so i could have bumped my score back to around an 84. perfect, but i couldn't even give it in because of my sickness. i feel ... like pastor sang.


so, I take the midterm. easy. i got so much answers from friends, and i didn't even have to ask them for questions, they just threw them at me. i knew i had gotten two questions incorrect, but I was feeling hot about the rest of my answers. i get it back two days later and i get to see a terribly red:


                                 '79'


not only was i curious to know how I could have gotten a 79, i was now more concerned of my grade and how it would drop.


and don't tell me, "hey, it's only two grades, you have another marking period." or maybe you're not thinking that, and you're being a jerk, but it's okay... no, it's not, really. 


after actually starting to worry about my chemistry midterm and such, I became very concerned about my other midterms. i worried about my english grade because my teacher was very, very biased in grading. i was worried about my math research grade, because i always sucked in that class. i was worried about everything, because having all my tests drop on the third marking period would mean that it would get put into my transcript. but, good news, my fellow friends. my average actually got bumped up! it's not the best and yes i dropped in certain areas, but c'mon, it was a few points. i was so happy, because i realized i could check for all my stuff online (except metro card) so i don't even have to go to school... i'm lazy.


latin: 96 -> 96
math: 96 -> 93
math rsrch: 86 -> 86
english: 81 -> 93
global: 88 -> 91
chemistry: 94 -> 90


thank you lord! surely he has given me a second chance. a chance to actually think about my grades for once. i know, it's just school, and really, i didn't care so much before. but hey, i don't want to throw my life away. god really gave me a revolution about my own outlook for my own education. you know what? if i should be a nerd, i guess i will be one. but really, i don't see that happening 8)


when i had seen my overall average was actually higher than my previous average, all the hype and suspense, the burden and fear flew out my heart. 


and i know now, jesus has a reason.


i mean, what better way to knock my senses back by scaring it into me? and so, i feel i have a commitment i should make. not just for myself. definitely not for my family (haha). but for jesus. he is my father right? i should at least make him happy. so yes, i do care about my grades quite a bit, since i'm accustomed for those 90 plus grades.


itaque (that's latin ;]), im planning to commit to:


1 stay in all my classes (don't get sick or anything)
2 get an even higher average (work harder)
3 do all my homework (cause i don't)
4 participate more (i already do)
5 study (study) [study]


hmm, wow. i'm surprised. i actually blogged. claps for me please!


now, the only way to really end this is to give my thanks to god once more. not just because he helped save my grades, but because he allowed me to get worried and frustrated so that i could really see the big picture. 


don't take the easy way out, because following jesus was never the easy way out. following jesus requires much more action than anything else. you never heard jesus taking the easiest way back to heaven with god. nope, he chose to be crucified. he was beaten and broken by his very own creation. 


don't rely on yourself to keep those grades up, because obviously i sucked at it, haha. got too caught up with other things, that i let it slip slowly. and it's so easy, really. 


hillsong united - second chance

The JOY of hearing such a word is actually not very joyful. In fact, it brings me to tears. Better yet, it makes me BLEED through my eyes. Quite pleasant, it is.

Okay, y'all. This here goes out to the one, THE ONLY...


JP YUN!






It's sad, really. 


Blogging? Yeah, I've heard all about it. Not really a fan of sitting at a computer talking about my day. 


"It's cause your life is boring!"


That's exactly right... I think.


I've never been into the blogging scene, honestly, I am a man of few words. :)
So I'll let my words be few and stop talking here.


Signing out!


P.S. - On a much, much more happier note (because talking about JP really ruins my day, haha),  Regents Week is coming up for high schoolers. Where's the event coordinator? We need a chill day.